Sunday, January 10, 2010

Nighttime Musings <(")

Here are some random things I wrote down in my notebook on Friday night. They don't make a lot of sense, but I loved them so, here they are!

Crying. The dark can do that to a person. If I just curl up, and close my eyes, and tell myself I'm sad for just a moment, I'll feel as if life isn't worth living anymore.
Then I think of love, and color, of lives, the world and the sky, music, and, dare I say it, myself. Then, in a swirl of brightness and beautiful, glorious sound, I am once again a child, being born again out of possibilities and hope, a new dawn and a new person. And then I fall asleep, only to wake up just another 12 year old.

It is better to cry with someone than to cry alone.
It is good to hug someone, even if no one hugs back.
Let it OUT.

Teen Girls' Daybook Week 9

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Date... Sunday, January 10, 2010
Starting time... 7:24 PM
Mood... impartial
Outside my window... it is vert dark and snowy.
I'm thinking... about an MLIA i need to post
I'm reading... HP6
I'm listening to... HP3 the movie. "Mischeif Managed!"
I'm wearing... pink and orange peace pants and an old soccer camp tee shirt
Yesterday, I... stayed up until 1 am playing JumpStart First Grade. i like where my life is.
I'm excited for... the new sidebar stuff that Cornet Crazie made!
I'm sad because... my aunt's funeral is on the day and time of the geography bee.
I'm hungry for... chocolate chip cookies made by my mom
The song stuck inside my head is... the Harry Potter theme
I want... to be left alone tonight
I love... my followers (:
I loathe... my slow slow computer
This week, my goal is... to have fun and follow through
Did I meet last week's goal?... not nessessarily... *smiles slyly*
Ending time... 7:30 PM

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Friday, January 8, 2010

Some things don't deserve a title. This apparently isn't one of them.

Tomorrow will be the best day of my life. I promise.

I have so much to say, and I'll explode if I don't say it all. But that just isn't possible; there is too much. And I can't put it into words. Not even the greatest writer could make it feasible. Not even the fastest typer could get it all down in less than a lifetime. If I laugh, I'll cry. If I cry, I'll never stop.

Small things.
I'm in my school's geography bee. Yaaayyy, I guess. I don't like crowds, speaking in front of crowds, or having people stare at me. But I need to do this.
Next, I'm going to the Power of the Pen writing competition on February 5th representing my school with some of my friends. It was originally scheduled for yesterday, January 7, but due to snow and stuff it got rescheduled for today. Guess what? Even more snow. It snowed for 24 hours, as I recall. Anyway, now it's in February.
Yesterday was a snow day, and I went sledding with my two best friends. AT NIGHT. It was amazing and so much fun. Then we went to Skyline, which was cool because one of my bff's step dad is the manager/owner or something. And it was empty. The whole night was great, except I hurt my butt hitting a piece (chunk!) of ice. Ouch.

Also, some bigger news, my father's aunt, whom I call Aunt Sadie, passed away today around 5 o'clock. She was diagnosed with cancer a few months ago, and has been having ups and downs. She was having one of her worse days, and me and my sister got a call shortly after getting home from school. I tried to go on with what I was doing, and I know that was awful of me, but I couldn't cope if I let myself succumb to the grief. It doesn't seem real that there is now one less life in my world, one less person for me to love.

I'm having a romance movie marathon. It's making me feel warm, fuzzy, and depressed. But... good? I can't express how much I love movies.

P.S. I love you.


Sunday, January 3, 2010

Teen Girls' Daybook Week 8

Date... Sunday, January 3, 2010
Starting time... 11:06 AM
Mood... tired and annoyed
Outside my window... the creek is frozen!
I'm thinking... about my mom
I'm reading... HP6
I'm listening to... the faucet running
I'm wearing... aeropostale night monkey pj's and brown aero jacket
Yesterday, I... watched Gone With the Wind
I'm excited for... our new Sims game
I'm sad because... I have to go to school tomorrow and get bottom braces
I'm hungry for... chocolate pancakes
The song stuck inside my head is... "I wanna make love right now, now, now!"
I want... pancakes
I love... my new Delia's comforter
I loathe... the word 'ajar'
This week, my goal is... to not be so addicted to the Internet
Did I meet last week's goal?... yes, as best as i could.
Ending time... 11:11 AM (make a wish)

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Last Post of 2009!

I'm so excited for the New Year! I thought 2009 was amazing, but according to my yearly horoscope, I just went through bad years. And 2010 is going to be much better for me! I didn't think the last few years were bad, but now looking back I guess they were kind of hard. But now I'm stronger, deeper, and much more mature. I can't wait to see what next year has in store. Apparently, people will be drawn to me- friends, family, and classmates- at random points through the year. That sounds awesome; more attention for me (I get overlooked... a lot)

Here are some amazing New Year's Eve dresses that I wish I was wearing tomorrow:
(the third and fourth pictures I designed on looklet.com. my account is HereIsYourVerse)
But I'm actually wearing (probably) a sparkly sequined top from Forever 21, dark skinny jeans, a dark gray cami, and either black flats or grey wrinkled ankle boots. Is anyone wearing something glam and fabulous? Preferably silver, preferably sequined (;

Let's all blow out 2009 with a bang and welcome 2010 with a louder one, the start of a new decade and even more fond memories and adventures.
Happy New Year!
PS. It's also the year I turn 13!!

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Date.... Saturday, December 26, 2009
Starting Time.... 2:58 PM
Mood.... tired ( i woke up at 1 *grins smugly*), happily content
Outside my window.... the sun is shining
I'm thinking.... about tiny arms (i<3snl)
I'm reading.... nothing at the moment. about to start HP6
I'm listening to.... a Burger King commercial. Well.
I'm wearing.... my pink aeropostale pjs and an aeropostale sweatshirt
Yesterday, I.... had an amazing Christmas
I'm excited for.... seeing Nine tonight
I'm sad because.... I feel like a hobo and I don't wanna take a shower.
I'm hungry for.... a milkshake. Chocolate (:
The song stuck inside my head is.... the Virgins- Private Affair, and
Diandre Colls- What Up With That?!
I want.... to be inside the What Up With That skit. its crazy in ther.
I love.... the dancing red sweatsuit man!
I loathe.... distractions
This week, my goal is.... to have an awesome time with my cousins on Monday.
Did I meet last week's goal?.... Finally, YES!
Ending time.... 3:17 PM

Friday, December 25, 2009

The True Meaning of Christmas

Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
In hopes that St Nicholas soon would be there.

The children were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of sugar-plums danced in their heads.
And momma in her 'kerchief, and I in my cap,
Had just settled our brains for a long winter's nap.

When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from the bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.

The moon on the breast of the new-fallen snow
Gave the luster of mid-day to objects below.
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a miniature sleigh, and eight tiny reindeer.

With a little old driver, so lively and quick,
I knew in a moment it must be St Nick.
More rapid than eagles his coursers they came,
And he whistled, and shouted, and called them by name!

"Now Dasher! now, Dancer! Now, Prancer and Vixen!
On, Comet! On, Cupid! On, on Donner and Blitzen!
To the top of the porch! to the top of the wall!
Now dash away! Dash away! Dash away all!"

As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly,
When they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky.
So up to the house-top the coursers they flew,
With the sleigh full of Toys, and St Nicholas too.

And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof
The prancing and pawing of each little hoof.
As I drew in my head, and was turning around,
Down the chimney St Nicholas came with a bound.

He was dressed all in fur, from his head to his foot,
And his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot.
A bundle of Toys he had flung on his back,
And he looked like a peddler, just opening his pack.

His eyes-how they twinkled! his dimples how merry!
His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!
His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,
And the beard of his chin was as white as the snow.

The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,
And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath.
He had a broad face and a little round belly,
That shook when he laughed, like a bowlful of jelly!

He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,
And I laughed when I saw him, in spite of myself!
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,
Soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread.

He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,
And filled all the stockings, then turned with a jerk.
And laying his finger aside of his nose,
And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose!

He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle,
And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.
But I heard him exclaim, 'ere he drove out of sight,
"Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good-night!"



Christmas needs no explanation. It is warm, loving, comfortable, and simple. You can give and receive, or cook and celebrate all you want, but take time to slow down and think about the real meaning of Christmas, the 'reason for the season.' Christmas is traditional, it is everlasting, it is familiar. Keep Christmas in your hearts, minds and souls, and don't forget. *winks*
I hope you took the time to read the poem above. It's a classic.

PS. I got a laptop. What did you get?

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Happy Christmas Eve!!

Lately I haven’t felt like blogging for some reason, and I feel bad about leaving you in the dark about the goings-on in my life. A few things have happened lately:

1. I went to a super-awesome Christmas bash at my friend Molly’s house.
2. A picture I took of a baby panda at the San Diego Zoo is being considered for an online brochure about San Diego destinations (see the picture: http://www.flickr.com/photos/42311910@N05/3905392920/ )
3. I found out that my grandpa’s sister, Aunt Sadie, is in the hospital with a rare type of heart cancer.

The party was sick! We made pizzas, watched movies (“17 Again” and “The Clique”), stayed up till 3:30 playing “Would You Rather,” and had a crazy dance-off/fashion show. In. Sane.

I got an email on Tuesday telling me that Schmap San Diego is considering my Flickr photo that I took of a panda to be featured in a brochure about different places around San Diego. I’ll get recognition, yet under a penname (I’m not putting my name out there for creepers!), and no payment. I wouldn’t have accepted payment anyway, for other reasons than just ethics. I’m so excited, though, and if my photo makes the cut they’ll email me the finished product. It will be on the page about the zoo.

Lastly, my father’s aunt has been in the hospital for over a month with a rare form of cancer, which I believe is of the heart. She is on a feeding tube and is moved back and forth between hospitals by ambulance. She looked great when we visited her yesterday, but it would be greatly appreciated if you kept her in your thoughts and prayers.

Merry Christmas!

PS. We still don't have snow! Looks like no white Christmas for us... and no sledding.


"I wers warshin’ my hands when the alians came through that ther winder and scooped up Old Man Jenkins like a piece’a fire wood. I just kept on warshin’ my hands like nothing had happened. It was all just a big misunderstandin’."