My 1st BLOGAVERSARY!!! and contest at the bottom (:

I'M A HORRIBLE BLOGGER! I missed by blogaversary by days! Granted, I was super busy, but that's no excuse for the truth: I forgot. I'm so so so so sorry, but I hope we can continue the festivities as planned (:

Ok, this was my first post ever:
http://whatnotmeltingpot.blogspot.com/2009/09/fashion-review-of-day.html
I'm so not proud of that. Haha I was such a weird 12-year-old! And some of those shirts are hideous, in my humblr opinion. Wow.

I started this blog because I saw an article on my Yahoo homepage one year ago about that 13 year old style blogger, Tavi Gevinsen. I thought her blog was so cool, and I wanted to be just like her, so I set my little world: The Whatnot Melting Pot.
One year, an unsuccessful food blog, and numerous wrong layouts later, the Whatnot Melting Pot now has almost nothing to do with fashion, but is pretty much all about me. I've come this close to quitting more than once, but I'm really glad I didn't. I just wish I posted more!

In honor of my Blogaversay, I'm going to tell you a fact about me for every post I've made (: That's.... 103 little tidbits/anecdotes/quirks about yours truly :D

Haha this is going to take forever.
Here we go:

1. I've always wanted to dye my hair red.
2. I love alternative and indie bands like Neon Trees, The Script, A Rocket to the Moon, and The Ting Tings.
3. I can run a mile in eight minutes and thirty seconds.
4. I LOVE shoes, so much.
5. I keep a giant box of Nerds candy on my desk at all times in case of emergency.
6. I eat at least three Hershey's kisses every day (:
7. I have played soccer averagely for almost ten years (wow!)
8. On a Friday night, you'll most likely find me sitting on my bed, hunched over my laptop, obsessively checking the Polyvore homepage every five minutes (seconds).
9. I have major antisocial tendencies, and new people intimidate me.
10. I'm SO self-conscious.
11. The fanciest restaurant I've ever been to was an outdoor corner bistro in Paris that reeked of cigarette smoke and cost twenty-five dollars for dry pasta and a table for two, seating four, behind another table (coincidentally occupied by two chain-smoking twenty-somethings laughing and canoodling for half an hour).
12. I have seen waterfalls in a total of three countries, none of which, I believe, are America (Croatia, England, and Ireland).
13. I'm deathly afraid of large bugs, scary movies, clowns, and my cousin's mom.
14. Italian, Chinese, and Mexican foods are the greatest things ever.
15. I am involved in a love quadrilateral :3 unbeknownst to two of the points, of course (hahahaa!).
16. I currently have all A+s, except for one A- in Science :\
17. This one kid in my class is constantly trying to be better than me at something, but so far the only this he has succeeded at was with one grid puzzle.
18. I absolutely love Light & Fit strawberry yogurt (or any strawberry yogurt!). I add my own chocolate chips, though (:
19. I am the proud owner of a light-up light saber wand that I got at the amusement park.
20. I've been on every roller coaster at said amusement park, except for two.
21. I have only ever met one celebrity- Josh Hutcherson.
22. I recently wrote a poem about chips 'n' salsa :D
23. Math confuses me, but I get it every time in the end.
24. I collect rings, and own more than I'd be willing to count (I wear one almost every day :).
25. I get jealous really easily O.o
26. I hugged a vegetarian for charity today, and I also bought cookies for the cure at lunch.
27. My soccer ball's name is Viktor (he's German!).
28. My bangs are the worst part of soccer, besides the running.
29. I'm reading the Hunger Games, per my friends' recommendations, and so far I have not been disappointed (:
30. Degrassi, America's Next Top Model, Criminal Minds, and Pretty Little Liars are my favorite shows at the moment.
31. I'm a Catholic, and believe in God wholeheartedly.
32. I keep a journal.
33. Once, when I was a 1 or 2, I dumped a whole bowl of Cheerios on my bald little head.
34. I love animals that are land and water, like otters, seals, penguins, and polar bears.
35. The weirdest CD I own is a two-track Indian spiritual melody.
36. I only had my first Twinkie last Friday on our way back from a field trip. Some kid didn't want it, so four of us Twinkie virgins passed it around between us. I didn't love it.
37. I LOVE writing (:
38. I don't really like playing with dolls, put I love picking out their outfits and designing their rooms haha
39. I'm a big nerd.
40. I have read all seven Harry Potter books, and have seen all six movies (soon to be eight!).
41. I got glasses in first grade, but now I have contacts that never leave my eyes.
42. If inspiration strikes me while I'm falling asleep, I'll jump out of bed and write it down (last night I wrote a whole poem at 11:15pm when I was supposed to be sleeping.
43. I broke my right arm in first grade, and the picture day guy made me try to hide my cast behind my back. So in my picture there's just a little edge of a purple cast poking out from behind me.
44. I only own two trophies, one's my sister's, and the other is for candy league soccer.
45. "Hey There, Delilah" was the first song I ever memorized all the words to.
46. I have a very advanced vocabulary.
47. The most annoying thing ever is when there's a fly in a room and it keeps buzzing around. I hate that SO much!
48. I LOVE the Sorority Life game on Facebook. I have over 300 million dollars (:
49. I didn't have a thirteenth birthday party.
50. I really like toast (:
51. I eat Special K chocolatey drizzle bars before every soccer practice.
52. I like to dip pretzel sticks in light balsamic vinaigrette (: Mmmm, I'm so weird.
53. I have a 6 year old chihuahua named Sandy (:
54. I really like the words 'sizzle,' 'free,' and 'festive.'
55. I REALLY like free-verse poetry.
56. I have framed butterflies in my room, for some reason. My favorite is the blue bottle.
57. My favorite shape is a triangle.
58. I couldn't live without ponytail holders. If I'm not using one, it's around my wrist 24/7.
59. "I hate to break it to you, baby, but I'm not drowning."
60. I usually get things done quickly, but I do procrastinate a lot.
61. I love coloring, especially with crayons.
62. My sister and I spend hours cutting up magazines to be collaged later.
63. I got my first cell phone when I was 11, and have only had one more since.
64. If my brown hair isn't straightened, I refuse to wear it down.
65. The only floor length mirror in my room distorts you to make you skinnier. It gets annoying, but can also be really nice (:
66. I lahhhhhve Chicken Parmesan and steak.
67. My favorite fruit is a strawberry, but soft kiwi is a close second.
68. My favorite kind of cake is red velvet, but I like most kinds.
69. I've been to two concerts total: Pink ft. The Ting Tings, and Kings of Leon ft. The Whigs and The Black Keys.
70. My three favorite tee shirts are a green Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles tee, a black The Whigs concert tee with a lion on it, and my sister's old royal blue Hollister shirt.
71. I only subscribe to two magazines, American Girl (which I'll probably cancel) and GL.
72. I think Selena Gomez is really pretty.
73. I've seen every Twilight movie, read 21 pages of the first book, and have disliked all of it.
74. My eyes change from green to blue, but are usually green and I prefer it that way.
75. I bought a fortune cookie kit once and have yet to try out the recipes.
76. I have two bulletin boards filled with things that are important to me, like pictures of my family, tickets from super cool places/events, and postcards from places I love.
77. I have eighteen cousins on my mom's side, and one on my dad's.
78. My snuggie has clouds on it, and even has pockets (OMG, witchcraft!).
79. My room has two calendars, one of beautiful islands, and one of penguins.
80. Most of my furniture is from Pottery Barn.
81. My mom makes the BEST fried chicken in the world.
82. I couldn't get through a day of being a vegetarian.
83. Bagel and egg sandwiches are the best breakfast EVAH.
84. My favorite number is 5.
85. I really like grey t-shirts, but my other favorites are a light orange one from the best ice cream parlor is South Carolina, The Yum Yum Shop, a light blue one from Power of the Pen State last year, and my self-splatter-painted black tee from PoP also.
86. I really like video games, but I suck really badly at them. I really like to watch (:
87. I want to learn how to play my acoustic guitar one day, and I hope my roommate in college is awesome and knows how.
88. I write songs sometimes.
89. I don't play any instruments except my vocal chords, and even that isn't too great.
90. I can't dance, but I can hop up and down and wave my arms around.
91. My room is in desperate need of cleaning, but at least I can see the floor. Unlike my sister's...
92. I might be Ariel for Halloween this year, and last year I was the Mad Hatter (Alice in Wonderland)
93. Soccer is the only sport I've ever played, but I took tennis lessons a few years ago.
94. Once, I went fishing in the creek near my friend's house, and we got this big net and caught hundreds of tiny fish! We threw them all back, of course, but it was really fun!
95. Tostitos and Lays are my favorite chips (:
96. IKEA has the best hot dogs!!
97. I care a lot about what people think of me.
98. I like photography, but I'm not that good.
99. Pretzels make me think of autumn and road trips.
100. I love getting mail, but I never get any.
101. I'm very coordinated.
102. I have my ninja moments.
103. I REALLYYY want you to enter this contest (:

Yay! That took forever, but I had fun. 10 points to whoever read it all (:
Hahaa. So, as #103 said, i would really really appreciate it if you entered my little contest:

Breanne's Wonderful Writing Contest
Submit a piece of writing (poem, short story, etc.) to me through a post on your blog and I will pick a winners (:

Rules:
1. It can't be too too long, but a page or two is fine.
2. It has to be submitted by October 20th. You can comment on this post with a link to your post.
3. It doesn't have to be about anything specific, just make it thought-provoking and engaging.
4. It can't be offensive or rude towards any specific person/group.

Grand Prize:
Two amazing customized pieces (header/background) from the lovely Kiki: http://kikisgotstyle.blogspot.com/ ! And your blog url put in my info for a month or so :D

Second Place:
One of Kiki's customized pieces just for you (: Your choice of a header or a background!

Make sure to get your entries in my October 20th, and happy writing! It would be so great if you joined!

It's been a great year here on Blogger, and I *hope* there is another one on the way (: A huge thanks again to Kiki for volunteering to make prizes, and to Olive Tree for the background/header/buttons that have served me well for so many months (: And a GINORMOUS thank you to all of my amazing followers, new and old! I never thought I'd get any followers, and now I have 26 beautiful people reading my blog! THANK YOUUU! I love you guys, and I probably wouldn't have made it a year without you (:

I just needed to vent.

My silent tears sting the back of my throat. They cloud my vision, blurring reality, but not one makes the quiet journey to my cheek. Red-eyed, I stare at the mirror, not seeing it, contemplating what I've done, said, who I've hurt. In four hours, I have screwed up in so many ways, but I've learned so much. I have felt, really felt, close to someone; I have said things that I've been wanting to say for a long time. I have laughed through the pain, sorrow, and disappointing teen antics, and I have come out mostly in tact. And now the one person that I've hurt the most tonight is downstairs, making me a pizza that I don't deserve.

Maybe I'm being dramatic, but I'm thirteen years old and I don't understand anything. I don't know how to love, how to deal with things, or how to explain something without making someone feel stupid, or angry, or hurt, even if that person is me. People underestimate a young person's emotions so much and so often. Today, I said I was a child, jokingly, to get into a movie. I didn't realize how true it was, until now. And I know that things could be worse, that I could have gotten in a lot more trouble, but right now, in this moment, there is nothing worse than knowing that your father is so disappointed, or hurt, that he can't even punish me. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe he isn't disappointed, or hurt. But I am. With myself.

I knew I should have told him so much more, every detail, asking his permission, telling him where I was going, what was happening. It's not like I did anything bad, or wrong, or illegal- but I might as well have. I lost my parent's trust, and he just said, this is how we learn. He didn't lecture me, or punish me, or explain to me what I did. He didn't take away any privileges, or possessions, or plans. Maybe he saw the grief in my eyes, or heard the tears in my throat, or knew that I had learned my lesson. And right now I love him more than anyone in the world. And my sister is mad at him, when it should be vice versa.

And the second person I love the most right now- is Mark. He understood when I told him about my vacation woes, he took responsibility for this whole fiasco, he listened when I explained my sister's comlpexity, and agreed with everything I said, and actually made me feel, if possible, better. I felt like I had someone I could rely on, someone I could tell anything to, someone I could laugh with, or cry with, or scream with, and would take it all in and still love me for who I am. Sure, he has a million faults, but he has a million and one ways to make me smile. And guess how many of those are faults?


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Did any of that make sense?

An Inspired Young Woman's Daybook (1)

I decided to try out this daybook by Melody at Vividry. If I do continue to do it, it will be posted on Wednesdays. I'll still keep doing the Teen Girls' Daybook on weekends as well.

Find out how to do An Inspired Young Woman's Daybook here: http://vividry-melody.blogspot.com/2010/02/inspired-young-womans-daybook.html

Today I tried to convince someone to give me "just one fourf!" of a brownie by talking in a baby voice. It failed, but succeeded in keeping my entertained for ten minutes.

I'm feeling tired, bewildered and a little worried.

My outfit is the top half of my school uniform and Christmas Stewie pj pants (aka, the weirdest combination ever).

Outside my window the evening sun is shining in my eyes and the snow is melting away.

A song that's stuck in my head is Can You Read My Mind by the Killers.

Something (a book, song, movie, person..) that's inspired me recently is a blog I found called Bre's Random Escapades. It talks, in some posts, about our relationship with God and little things we can do to strengthen it. Also, a retreat held at my school for 7th graders last Wednesday inspired me to start a journal and write a brief letter to God each day, and to read a Bible passage and reflect on its meaning and how it can relate to my life.

A prayer of my heart this week is that I will gain confidence and self-esteem in school and elsewhere. I've been having trouble reading my writing to the class or talking to certain people, and I'd like God to help me change that.

I am creating a stronger friendship with the people around me and a stronger feeling of belonging.

I am reading Point Blank by Anthony Horowitz, the sequel to Stormbreaker and a fascinating story about a boy spy in present-day London, and To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee for school.

I am thinking about the epic game of Dots I played with my 'mates instead of researching for Expression.

A scripture verse or passage that's stuck out to me this week is the story of the wedding that Jesus and Mary went to, where the wedding party ran out of wine and Jesus turned gallons of water into the finest of wines. I can't remember the chapter, but it made me realize that God can do anything, and His miracles are everlasting.

A spiritual lesson I'm learning is to trust God's plan and His guidance for my life. I may not understand at first, but everything He does happens for a reason. I need to trust that in time, I will know the reason and be ever grateful to God.

An attribute of God I've seen this week is His creation. Everything I see seems to be so beautiful! I'm even seeing some things in a new light and appreciating their glory.

A picture I'd like to share is of some bracelets my sister got for me. They were $3 each and all of the proceeds went to charity. I think the art department made them out of old donated silverware.

I'll post the picture of the spoon in the next post.

A creative goal for next week is to draw and color some beautiful artwork to put on my corkboard.

Did I complete my goal from last week? n/a

Great daybook, Melody! I think I'll continue doing it :)

Ridiculously Awesome Tag

Seriously, it's ridiculous. -ly awesome. (it made sense in my head...)
Yet another tag, from Glow Fish (thanks!):

FOOD-OLOGY

What is your salad dressing of choice? Balsamic Vinaigrette. Anything else isn't worth it

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Applebee's!

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it? Sandwiches

What are your pizza toppings of choice? plain cheese, or ham and pepperoni

What do you like to put on your toast? Butterrr. or plain. i like plain.

TECHNOLOGY

How many televisions are in your house? Don't make me count. 1... 2... 3...... 6.

What color cell phone do you have? red and black with a little silver

What does your first text message in your inbox say and who sent it? WE WON! with a picture of our POP state trophy, from Abbie

Who was the last person to call you? Mom

BIOLOGY

Are you right-handed or left-handed? Lefty, baby!

Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Nope, not even my tonsils.

What is the last heavy item you lifted? my backpack

RANDOM-OLOGY

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? Not really. Yes and no.

I you could change your name, what would you change it to? It would be cool to change my name whenever i wanted, but i like my name.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? It depends how hot, but I ate a pepper from Steak 'N' Shake for $10, so... yes.

DUMB-OLOGY

How many pairs of flip flops do you own? a lot, like... 5?

Last time you had a run-in with the cops? Yea, what about it? (jk, never)

Last person you talked to? my dad

Favorite month? March (birthday) and June

CURRENT-OLOGY

Missing someone? Yes. ):

Mood? hungry and disappointed

What are you listening to? my laptop whirring and humming and my typing

Watching? the screen. i have the cool Windows 7 feature with the 2 pages next to each other :)

Worrying about? POP on the 25th

RANDOM-OLOGY

What's the last movie you watched? Penelope

Do you smile often? Yes! i laugh easily

Do you always answer your phone? Yes, if i have it with me and on (rare)

It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? my phone isn't on at 4, but it would probs be one of my "stalkers"

If you could change your eye color what would it be? I'd want to change it at will, but i like my color-green. my eyes are the only perfect, unblemished part of my face. i could do a whole post on eyes...

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? I only ever get chocolate milkshakes, but there's one up the street :)

Do you own a digital camera? Yesiree, my very own

Have you ever had a pet fish? yes, but they all died

Favorite Christmas song? Winter Wonderland or Let It Snow

What's on your wish list for your birthday? a Flip video camera. its in a month!

Can you do push-ups? Ehh... fairly.

Can you do a chin-up? not really :P

Do you have any saved texts? Yes :) memories...

Ever been in a car wreck? never. and lets keep it that way

Do you have an accent? Nope. But i do a mean British

What is the last song to make you cry? no idea

Plans tonight? i wish. oh wait, i do: to play Littlest Pet Shop. sad, right?

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? yes :,(

You ever been given roses? never roses plural

Current hate right now? This one kid, he makes me so mad!

Met someone who changed your life? Yes (:

What were you doing 12AM last night? sleeping, dreaming, fidgeting

What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? I don't want to go to school and I don't want that dream to end.

I tag...

anyone who loves hot chocolate and cozy lighting

Snow Day and Kreativ Blogger Award

SNOW DAY!! I'm so excited XD Between today, last night, and yesterday, we got like a foot of snow! It's so pretty outside and it's still coming down hard. I can't wait to suit up in overly puffy layers and brightly colored snow gear and go outside and play (: I am a child.
I wonder if there is still a paprika gang of robins gathering around my garage...

Anyhoo,
I was awarded by Adria! (grr, can't get the link to work!)

7 things about me:

1. I am a democrat

2. My favorite football teams are the Bengals and the Saints

3. I'm left-handed

4. I am half Croatian

5. I still love "kid" shows and toys :P

6. I support gay marriage

7. I don't like my nose

And I award this lovely award to:

Emma from Summer Girl

The Trendy Fashionista

Kiki :)

Thanks again, Adria!

Random Tidbits You Were DYING To Know

- i spent Saturday night at La Rosa's with some very interesting people -

- today i won the seventh grade homeroom Catholic Schools Week essay contest -

- i also won Cassie's photography contest: edited landscape -

- i wrestled a high school sophmore this weekend. he sat on me. we are not related -

- i went all day without even noticing that i was wearing 2 different socks of the same color scheme. no one else noticed either -

- when i was little i was obsessed with dress up and that game where you get jewelry and tiaras as you play. i made my dad wear the tiara -

- sometimes i take pictures of random people without them knowing if i think their outfit is cool -

- i am totally allowed to use these random facts for other tags, awards, or milestones -

- i am half asleep -

Honest Scrap Award!

Thank you, Kiki, for this cool award!

OK, so here are ten honest things about me:

I keep a notebook of cool quotes I find.

I have a slight crush on a nerd in my grade.

I don't have a favorite animal.

I can never finish a story.

I'm really self-conscious.

I always think I'm in love when I like someone.

I try not to put people into stereotypes, but often fail.

I hate my hair.

I'm going to Croatia this summer. :)

I hate it when my room gets cluttered, but I detest cleaning it.

And I give this award to:

Hannah from Aspire

Ivory Dancer from Another Once in Time

Maggie from Behind the Teen Scene

Emma from Summer Girl

The Trendy Fashionista

The Cornet Crazie from Treble Clef

Hannah from things to write on a neon post-it note

Sorry if you've already gotten it, and thanks again, Kiki!

Nighttime Musings <(")

Here are some random things I wrote down in my notebook on Friday night. They don't make a lot of sense, but I loved them so, here they are!

Crying. The dark can do that to a person. If I just curl up, and close my eyes, and tell myself I'm sad for just a moment, I'll feel as if life isn't worth living anymore.
Then I think of love, and color, of lives, the world and the sky, music, and, dare I say it, myself. Then, in a swirl of brightness and beautiful, glorious sound, I am once again a child, being born again out of possibilities and hope, a new dawn and a new person. And then I fall asleep, only to wake up just another 12 year old.

It is better to cry with someone than to cry alone.
It is good to hug someone, even if no one hugs back.
Let it OUT.